Hopefully it won’t be on the main page for too long, I don’t know what this post really or what it means, yet again my best friend replaced me with some random person within 5 minutes of meeting them, maybe I get jealous idk, it just seems like everyone in my life uses me and fucks me off the minute they find someone else, most of the time they come back like it didn’t mean anything.
Maybe that’s a selfish way of thinking, i’m tired but ugh I fuck every friendship and relationship up in the end, through my wrecklessness, or just I change, i’ve been like that for 16 years and it just hurts, because it makes me paranoid of meeting new people and when I do make friends, relationships it makes me even worse.
It’s like i’ve had so many opportunites in life, so many yet I have thrown every single one of them away, and I have no idea where my life is heading, stable one minute, then it’s fucked.
Maybe it’s punishment by the will of God for my sins.